Monday, May 22, 2017

Miscarriage can feel like a really mean trick.


One minute you're staring at a positive pregnancy test, smelling baby lotions and
looking at how very, very tiny newborn onsies are....

...and the next, there is no heartbeat on the monitor
and the technician says..."I'm so sorry."

Miscarriage is a tease.
You're going to have a baby, and then....you're not.

Unfortunately it's part of this life here on earth. and even in loss God has a plan.

He had a plan when He gave us a baby to dream about,
even if it was only for a few short weeks.

I can see good that came out of it. My kids learned, I learned.

Most of the pregnancy I've been down...I was put on semi-bed rest from the start.
I'm tired of sitting. I'm tired of being careful. and I'm tired of wearing a pad!

My kids have done so, so much in the past couple of weeks helping out around the house.
I can not tell you how great they were. {still are!}
I mean, Frankie is potty trained and I had nothing to do with it!!! How incredible is that?



Our baby was due December 14.2017.
I'm ten weeks along. The baby has been gone for a while though.
I'm scheduled to have a D&C Wednesday morning.
...unless I miscarry on my own before that. Which I do not want to happen!

The last time I miscarried it dragged on and on and on and
I ended up needing the surgery weeks and weeks later anyway.
At this point...I just want to be DONE!

If you're one of those people thinking...well, she's older now,
my midwife had the best thing to say about this...
"If you're young enough to get pregnant, you're young enough to have the baby!"

Don't let your age ever scare you into not having a baby if you want one.
You have to be careful with statistics...they aren't always the most accurate thing to go by.
{I could write a whole book on this!}

One of my kids asked why we had to lose our baby when there are other people
who have babies that don't want them or are mean to them.
It's not a comparison.
God doesn't work that way.
He doesn't compare our life to someone else's when He chooses to give or take away.
That's a human way of thinking....and it's easy to wonder.
...but again, that's not how God works.

We are an individual, with an individual story,
{yet intertwined so beautifully with others, if we follow His will..
....life fits together perfectly.}

He is writing a story with each of us separately.
In the end, we will have our own life tale.

What we choose to do with that life is up to us.
Love. Help others. Serve each other. Be kind.

There are some who will choose unwisely.
In the end, they will have a sad story and a sad legacy to leave behind.

We must do our best with what we are handed.
Trusting that it is the best for us even when it doesn't feel that way.
From every situation in life we can find something good.

My early miscarriage pales in comparison with what other women have gone through.
I am thankful this is happening now and not months from now!

My cousin had written her infertility story a few weeks back.
I found it so inspiring when she wrote...

"If you're interested in my IVF story, I'm going to tell it here.
I know when I was starting out with a fertility doctor,
I read the stories of as many real women as I could find. Here is my story."

How true!
It's so nice to read a story told by a real person, going
through a similar situation, rather than a doctor on WebMD!

We had friends lose their 11 year old daughter the day before Christmas Eve.
I have friends who aren't able to have any children.

We are sad about the baby, but have so much to be thankful for.
..and quite honestly...in situations like this, God really does give us Grace to handle them.

I am fine and ready to just move forward...
as in riding my bike! running outside! planting my garden!
Going on a date with my husband!!!

Just thought I'd share.
XxOo

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Wrapping up the week on Saturday...I love this lens...oh wait, I don't. I do love this song though.and the tacos. and the muffins.

I found my old lens in my camera bag..I thought...I haven't used this for a while.
When I uploaded my pictures, I remembered why.
I never thought I would be a person who cared about camera lenses...but I do.
...and all last weekend I used the one I highly dislike. Oh well.


My grandparents live on a lake...and all the grand kids and great-grand kids think it's the greatest.
Especially since there are many fishermen{and fishergirls} in our family.
{I am not one of them..I just like to be outside by the water...maybe cast once or twice}








When your neighbor graduates high school...and they have a party and hire a Taco Truck.
No matter how hard a person tries, no one can make tacos like the Mexicans can.
The cilantro, the onions, the beef, the corn tortillas...so good.




It's Saturday. It's raining... It's 48 degrees outside.
I am freezing and wearing a big chunky sweater....in May.
I have sour dough rising in the kitchen.
The girls and I are on the couch watching this old movie ...it's one of my favorites!
{I think I've seen it 2,000 times...I will never get tired of it no matter how old I get.}

Jeff and the boys are working on our family room/dining room renovation...
..I think today the wall is coming down! I'm so excited!
I love any home project....and this one is a big one.

Cute little song for you to listen to.

Happy Weekend.
XxOo

Monday, May 8, 2017

Lately around here.


Sunshine came.....but it's still chilly.
{Dear warm, where are you?
I reeeeeaaaally want to open my windows and wear sundresses!}



My herb garden needs tending to.
That will most likely happen this week.


Bath night is every night...thank you sand and dirt.

Thanks to Alex, our back porch is summer ready...whenever it decides to come.

{Sophia taking sunset photos with my camera ^^^..love finding their pictures when I upload.}

This girl made us homemade pizza Friday night...Thanks Allison.

Dinner by Jeff.
He's seriously amazing in the kitchen.




Jeff was fixing my clothesline posts and he "helped".



And that's lately around here. :)
XxOo

Friday, April 28, 2017

Wrapping up the week...Engagement.Being Late.Balloons.The Sweetest Photo.Two Songs.My Love.



I remember being there when he was born... now my little brother Jake is getting married!

He asked Molly to be his bride.
She is adorable and sweet and we are excited to
have her joining our family.

He proposed early on a gorgeous, gorgeous, Sunday morning at the end of Navy Pier.
My sister and I went down early with our husbands and
tied balloons to a bench.

Then sat back across the pier, drank our coffee and waited.
Our friend Maggie was there to take pictures!!! It was perfect.





Maggie is amazing....is this not the most perfect photo ever???
{Navy Pier reposted it on their site..How fun for them!}


This article has been circulating the web...I love it!
It's perfect. You need to read it and have compassion on the late.

"People who are late have a greater inability to feel stressed, leading to health benefits, but also think outside the box and look at the bigger picture. All of these things lead to greater success at work, alongside a longer life."
and also...


"As with the laid-back nature of a B type personality, they will not worry so much about train times, booking hotels or flights. They “will just throw some items in a suitcase and head out, figuring out where to eat and sleep along the way."
^^^I think Jeff and I had a plan once..maybe.

Late people don’t see it as a big deal when others are late, because they can ‘see the bigger picture’

I promise to never be mad if you are late.
It will actually make me happy because you will be later than me! ;)




So next week I'll tell you how my attitude as a wife needed to change..
...and how I'm praying and working on it.

I am so in love with this man{the one wearing the blue shirt in the picture ^^^}
...the more I learn, the more I realize how UN-deserving I am.


Here are 2 songs...they will make you think and appreciate.

Grab some Kleenex before you listen to THIS one.
Jeff told me he loved me and sent it to me last summer when we were in the middle of a fight...
...yeah, I was crying and our silly little fight pretty much ended immediately.

It seemed important at the time...but yeah, I don't even remember what it was over!
Ha! We are such selfish beings. People I mean..us people. Me. Myself. all of us.
Thank you Jesus for redemption!

Here's another ....I absolutely love The Avett Brothers.

They are probably our favorite.
Years of listening and we have never gotten tired of hearing their music.


Well...You have a great weekend.
XxOo

Monday, April 24, 2017

For the people who never see the morning.


I would rather wake up at 4am, than stay up until 4am.
Early mornings are my favorite part of the day.

The way the sun shines.
Breakfast.Coffee.
The quiet. The stillness.
The whole day is ahead of you.

In the wee hours of Sunday morning, we were on a mission {more on that another day...}
Tourist-y yes, but Navy Pier is absolutely gorgeous in the morning.
The sun rising over the lake covering the buildings with glittery sunshine.
Everything sparkles.

I love listening to the city in the morning. {whether on the pier or not...}
There is so much to hear when traffic is non-existent and the city is still asleep.






My sister Stephanie and Maggie  ...a friend who is basically family.
Thanks for hanging out with us and showing us your adorable home that I want to live in.


Frankie in his shark shoes eating MY biscoff donut!!!
The one I dreamed of for daaaaays!!!  The one I couldn't replace.
Sigh....The things we sacrifice for our children.




Hope your Monday is off to a great start.
XxOo

Monday, April 10, 2017

This morning at our house...









..
...our front door and windows are open.
......sour dough bread is cooling on the counter to be used for lunch.
....trees and bushes and plants are blooming.
..it was sunny enough to drink coffee on the porch this morning!
.....we've been a little off track with school and our schedule the past two weeks,
it feels good to be productive and organized this Monday morning.
....the pink hyacinths Jeff's mom let me pick from her yard yesterday smell so sweet.
..half of my children are doing school outside..I love these kinds of days.
....Frankie has been protecting us all morning from bad guys using only a squishy Lego sword.
..I am happy and content and thankful to be able to stay home.

Jeff and Alex have been listening to the Gray Havens a lot lately....
...I love this SONG. It's been played a couple times already today. ;)

Happy start to a new week to you.
XxOo

Friday, April 7, 2017

Wrapping up the week...Wow! what happened to all that marriage blogging?


Life...that's what happened.
I started this week with  piano lessons filling my Tuesday afternoon
and nothing else on the schedule....

....I haven't stopped all. week. long!!!
Everyday filled to the brim with busy. All good...but I'm glad it's the weekend.

These photos were all taken last Sunday.
It was opening trout weekend...my boys really look forward to this time.
They usually spend it with my dad and brothers...it's a Savino family tradition.

It was rainy and cold...I was the only one that cared. Ha!










Jeff and I celebrated 20 years this past week.
We ate deep dish pizza and watched a movie on our couch.

We are actually planning a trip together this summer/fall.
....and we're going to breakfast tomorrow.
I love being married to him so very much. He makes life perfect.

Have a wonderful weekend.
It's supposed to be warm and sunny here!
XxOo